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Falin who cares too much and too little - analysis
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Been stewing on Falin thoughts for a while, I know I have an interpetation on her that differs from many but Iâm jumping into the fray. I think thereâs a lot to be said about what we do see of Falin. This shorter Falin analysis I made is heavily encouraged prior reading. This analysis mainly explores her complex relationship with caring and so itâs sort of structured in two halves, with Faligon at the crux of it all.
Falin cares too little :
A lot of people assign Falin a people pleasing mindset and I⌠Donât agree. We never see her care at all about people in her town or at the academy not liking her.
We do see her worrying about what people think of her⌠ONCE. And Laios comforted her, told her they didnât matter and she should be proud of herself. She latched onto that hard. Thatâs why this scene was so important to be included during the dragon fight, relationship-defining; itâs always been them against the world. She grew to not care what others thought, to only focus on her close loved ones. No one else matters.
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Laiosâ words were her world. Her older brother who taught her how to feel comfortable with herself, who told her, youâre great, others are the ones in the wrong to not see that, Iâll always be with you, always be there for you. Older brother who always made great plans, who always knew more, who was better at wrestling to name the dogs, who she has always idolized. Laios who always spoke of traveling the world, to which she always said she wanted to follow. And she would, sheâd follow him even if it meant leaving the academy and all she knew behind, sheâd follow him to the ends of the world, and thatâs what she did.
She didnât care about showing to her classes or keeping up such appearances, she doesnât even think of toning down her jumping into bushes when Marcille recoils, etc. She acts like an obedient pawn often, to her parentâs directives and then following Laios around no matter what he decides to do, but I donât think the motivation is people pleasing, rather itâs being with & caring for her loved ones, and her go-with-the-flow attitude enhances the impression. Not that itâs as simple as that, mind you, but letâs talk about this for now.
Falin is perceived as selfless because we, the audience, have our perspectives revolving around the main people in her life (Laios, Marcille). Theyâre the ones sheâs devoted to and people who care about her back a lot too, but to people like her classmates or the towspeople she probably must have seemed like someone who didnât care about the people around her or her surroundings a lot, who just went on alone and did her own thing.
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What matters to Falin? From what place does her kindness come from? Is a part of her keeping up appearances? And I think thatâs the point, the horror of Faligon as well, that we canât tell just how in control Falin the person is as the chimera (because we are shown that sheâs in there, we just donât know at what degree), that we donât know her enough to be able to tell when sheâs at her most genuine, her most raw. That even if you do settle on none of her being present as Faligon, we have to at least consider it, consider that she may be able to do something like this and have a part in it, brutal and uncaring. That even the lenses we see her through, the people who love her, may be unreliable.
And this is whatâs very interesting about her too, she truly is so idealized by people around her as a saint. Sheâs so good and kind and caring to everyone etc etc etc. Laios, Toshiro and Marcille all see her as the paragon of goodness in the world. More cynical characters like Namari and Chilchuck have more layered opinions on her, the latter finding her somewhat unnerving because he canât read her well. But then with that one flashback scene we see that⌠Her priorities are intensely focused on Laios and Marcille, she doesnât care all that deeply about anyone other than them (+ maybe her parents). The rest of the party is in the same danger here but only Laios and Marcille who sheâs speaking to get the special ,ention, and if they donât cross her mind then of course sheâd be ready to sacrifice strangers through a risky teleportation. That doesnât make her not kind or caring!! Just that greater good isnât exactly her priority. Any means is alright if the end result is her loved ones safe, it usually takes the form of healing and caring, but we see sheâs ready to fight and make dangerous calls too. To me thereâs this aspect to her that she isnât as pure and magnanimous as everyone thinks she is, both in-world and interestingly enough meta wise as well, and thereâs something interesting to that.
People pleasing implies a need to be liked, needs for the motivation to be that. A yes-man, etc. But if we analyze Falin, her general kind, smiling demeanor is more a matter of passivity I yhonk. Conflict avoidance is easier, so sheâs friendly and hopefully thingsâll be smooth sailing. Itâs easy to be kind to classmates even if they act wary and rude if you donât care about what they think either way. Of course she prefers good things happening to people over bad things, she is genuinely kind, but I think people tend to assign her a very grand altruistic way of life when to her the motivation is pretty self-centered. She doesnât do what she does because she loves them, but because she loves them.
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One situation thatâs interesting to dig into for her way of thinking, and what Iâm trying to get at, is Shuroâs proposal to her. Iâve seen people saying she hesitated because she didnât feel comfortable saying no even though she wanted to, "I canât say no, I donât want to hurt him", something that sounds sensible and familiar, but itâs actually canon in the Adventurerâs Bible that the reverse was the case, that she didnât feel comfortable saying yes. Because the offer was tempting, but itâd have been a loveless agreement on her end. And it makes sense sheâd want to say yes too, like we see with the Toudens, marriage is very much a political strategical economical thing in their village, thereâs even a bit on it on Laiosâ Adventurerâs Bible profile about dowries, and both siblings were engaged very early. They lived poorly for a long time, itâs an enticing idea to marry rich, to have not only yours but your brotherâs needs met forevermore easily, which at one point in their careers was their main worry and goal. Why shouldnât she accept a life of leisure and wealth handed to her by a lovely friend?
So her hesitance was "yeah thatâs convenient for me, but where itâs everything to him and heartfelt Iâm able to be detached because I donât care about it that much⌠Can I do that? Iâm not reciprocating, not saying yes in the way that matters. Can I do that to him?" Very caring even though itâs not what youâd expect, isnât it?
And central to my analysis, where Iâm going with this is, I feel like thatâs the thing with her character, that she doesnât feel as strongly as she "should" sometimes, or feels a different way than she "should", or at least that she feels that way and others say she does. She didnât mind suddenly leaving the academy, leaving Marcille behind and not seeing her for 4 years. She acted like it was no big deal that she sacrificed herself after getting resurrected after the red dragon fight. And in both those cases it upset the people around her greatly that she didnât seem to get why it was such a big deal, didnât seem to care about how theyâd experienced her choices.
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So itâs a tendency⌠And itâs not that she doesnât care, itâs just that the way she measures whatâs good for the ones she loves isnât the same as what they themselves think it is (like Laios and Marcille not wanting to be apart from her). Itâs an overt but quiet kind of care, itâs doing things like following them around and making sure they bathe and have a meal, even if that means she has to be dragged into misery too.
So yes she probably would know "not caring enough/the right way" is one of her perceived flaws, and that informs how she tries to handle her response to Shuroâs proposal. Her not wanting to accept like her first gut instinct, is because sheâs thinking about reciprocity, about if itâd be right to go into this knowing that they have different priorities and she might not be able to keep up with the type and amount of emotions he wants/expects from her. And thatâs a big part of her character isnât it, having expectations pushed onto her. Her trying her best, but in her own way that may seem odd or even unfeeling. Not unlike when she exorcised the ghost as a kid too, unblinking and matter-of-factly, and not seeming to understand why people stared the way they did.
Even though she answered his proposal only post-canon, sheâd been pondering it for a while even pre-canon and the Adventurerâs Bible explanation was released midstory, so Iâm hesitant to assign her much growth about her hesitation and what I went on above, since she still didnât react "right" with Laios after the red dragon fight (even if she apparently doesnât remember sacrificing herself) and put herself in that situation in the first place. She hasnât finished her arc on that flaw of hers is what Iâm saying, she for sure still has it, but I certainly think her thoughts on Shuroâs proposal shows awareness, both of herself and social.
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And awareness is a big analysis key word with Falin, especially here it can be hard not to conflate not caring with not knowing. How socially aware is she? Itâs rather layered, because canonically she wasnât aware of her ostracization in her hometown at all, and weâre not sure if she knew Shuro was interested in her before he proposed, but she generally seems more socially aware than Laios. She tags along on his caravan job to make sure he isnât being mistreated (though doesnât ask he get a salary), she catches social faux-pas more easily like in the genderbend magic mirror omake with Shuro, and interestingly enough sheâs very good at empathizing with her parents and understanding their perspective. We see when sheâs worried about Marcille coming that she does know about propriety and how appearances shape impressions. Being a chiefâs daughter must at least have taught her a thing or two on that front.
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She never stands up for herself, but when it comes to defending others she worries, strategizes and explains.
And this sort of understanding is part of why I think sheâd notice the expectations pushed onto her like I was saying earlier, notice how she makes people feel when sheâs careless. But if she changes anything about herself in response to noticing is for her to choose, and generally I think itâs a sort of inbetween of yes and no: that she becomes more complacent but also more reserved, complying but by hiding more of herself passively. Sheâs not sure wether to accept or reject Shuroâs proposal, doesnât want to lead him on? Sheâll just be taking a while to silently consider it, try to keep things as they are for the time being. The third, less conflicting option. She doesnât feel heard by Marcille who keeps infantilizing her? Just bear with it. Retract yourself emotionally. Settle for it.
We see that when she was young she had a tendency to not read a room, and I think thatâs here too. She doesnât get why her nonchalance upset others but that doesnât change that she doesnât want them upset or hurt, so she tries, albeit in maybe a roundabout way. She always had a hard time deeply connecting with people, often keeping herself some amount of emotionally distant: erasing herself from the equation, from the two-way trade that relationships are and making it a onesided thing instead, where all their needs and emotions are directed towards her but she only lets out a bit of her own show. She takes everything upon her and deals with it and tries not to give others this same burden, though not on a conscious level, itâs just that sheâs learned growing up that she doesnât have much agency.
Like I went into with my analysis linked at the beginning, I think Falin is used to just taking what she can get and not asking for more, when it comes to social bonds. Sheâll take spending time with her mother no matter what it is they do, sheâll follow Laios to the graveyards and stick by him even when heâs pushing her away (because he doesnât want her borrowing his book or "No copying!" or such). Her father was always distant, cold and uncommunicative, her mother was considered sick from anxiety and the exorcism attempts were the main way they spent time together, at dinner tables there were only her and Laios. The dogs picked on her too even if she loved themâ And so did the townspeople, maybe that being normal to her at home is why she didnât notice the ostracization she suffered.
Sheâs always been the last to be asked about decisions or what she wants, never asked to play with at recess, neither her father or Laios asked before sending her to the academy or leaving the village. At home, in the hierarchy she was considered to be below the dogs by the dogs themselves, as someone they can disrespect. Dogs learn from example and behavior, so this means Falin must have been pushed around a lot, and that the family didnât try hard to rectify the dogsâ misconception, likely worsened by Laios regularly wrestling with her as a competition.
So for example when Falin showed Marcille food, it was her way to implicitly ask to have lunch with her without voicing that question, without daring to take up space. Someoneâs presence isnât something you ask for, itâs something thatâs bestowed upon you, you can follow them around but you canât ask them to stay or to come with.
Sheâs used to her needs and wants not being listened to, so sheâs learned to have less wants. Caring less about herself, caring less about other people beyond her safe zone, was a defense mechanism in part. She has a sense of learned helplessness too, like how when Marcille came to take her away from Laios, even though she didnât want to leave with Marcille it felt so determined and unshakable to her that whatever Marcille decided Falin would have to comply with.
And still, itâs the "marrying you would be awfully convenient if it wasnât that Iâd feel guilty for not loving you back, the way you wanted me to when you proposed to me" and the "I donât regret leaving the academy and leaving you behind without goodbyes but Iâm sorry that youâre so much more upset about it than me". Itâs the guilt of not loving people back the way they want to be, with the same intensity or fervor.
Itâs the autism itâs the aroace of it all, itâs the emotional stunting and confusion but the pit in your stomach telling you you did something wrong again. The no object permanence even for people you love even for 4 years, itâs the feeling like youâre somehow at fault for someone having fallen for you and not knowing what to do with any of it. Iâm not joking btw it isnât uncommon for autistic people to not see their close friends for a long while, not having missed them all that much and for that to be really hurtful for the other if they notice/ask about it. "Hiii bestie! Oh umm youâre uh more emotional about this than I expected, hopefully you wonât feel alienated by me not feeling as intensely about itâŚ"
So⌠Yeah. I think she thinks of things and relationships in a different way than most people, and beyond "good things happening to people is good" I donât think she actually cares about people all that much. Iâd argue that Laios shows more desire to connect with others and make relationships. And just like with Laios and his own issues with humans, that doesnât mean her kindness is a lie or ungenuine or worthless! It just means that like, well itâs pretty straightforward really, sheâs not all that social and doesnât see casual bonds as meaning all that much and whatnot. She does want to see people happy, but itâs not as much like⌠A conviction or goal. Sheâs too laser focused on a select few people. "Itâs not that theyâre bad people, they just arenât interested in humans."
And sometimes it feels like people get defensive about Falin in a meta way too, like if you ever so much as imply Marcille isnât her whole world or that she isnât the kindest soul out there then youâre saying she doesnât care at all or sheâs evil. And thatâs actualy exactly the sort of vibe I wanted to get through with my analysis above here actually haha, that she does care and she is kind but itâs not in a way thatâs quantified or understood in a way that makes people feel comfortable. In a way, that makes people feel insecure because they donât have the same logic as her, donât show love the same. And I think this is another stellar depiction of autism, of parts of it that feels unpalatable to many, if Iâm making sense. The fandom idealizes her as well, which isnât uncommon or surprising for the character embodying the trope of the perfect beloved to rescue.
And disclaimer, as I said in the tags I feel like the details of Falin are pretty vibe based when it comes to analysis, thereâs absolutely a valid angle where she does super care about everyone always, feel free to disagree with me on the overarching angle of my analysis. Thereâs enough supporting evidence to tip the balance either way I think, and the reason Iâve chosen this angle is I feel itâs more compelling for the themes in Dunmeshi of idealization and being different, of desires vs wants, and because I think it neatly ties up Falinâs character arc as Iâll go over throughout the next sectionâŚ
So.
Not feeling as much as she should. AndâŚâŚ. Is this not Faligon pushed to the max?
You canât tie down a dragon. As the chimera, she gets to just not care about everyone else and be on her merry way.
Part of it I think is finding comfort and freedom in the mindlessness, in not having the burden of feelings and connections and a consciousness (despite still ending up seeking those in a stranger, Thistle). Like when sheâs dead in the purgatory as well, she gets to just⌠Hang around and do whatever. Similarly to when she played in the forest instead of going to class in her academy days. Thatâs what freedom and peace of mind looks like to her. Why she decides to roam post-canon, if only now with the goal to find herself instead, with her mind in tow and somewhere to go back home to.
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Thereâs excellent analytic framing out there about how of course, Dungeon Meshi has a big theme of grief and letting go, and⌠Falin was always a symbol narratively, idealized by characters and often underconsidered by them despite their love. It was Falinâs choice to sacrifice herself for Laios, she thought it was worth it, knowing that it would be her end. Her resurrection and the process of it intertwining her soul with a dragonâs wasnât done with her consent, and the subsequent opening it gave her to become a chimera puppet. Sheâs stripped of her agency consistently, and so⌠Itâs very noteworthy that the final choice, of wether to go back to life or to stay dead, in that purgatory scene, was up to her. And she chooses life, but I do think about her in those fields and how at home she seemed there. Peaceful, by herself in a vast calm expanse she could explore, free.
Personally, I think freedom is Falinâs own subconscious selfish desire. And though to us becoming the chimera is obviously a shackle, I think it felt like freedom to her somewhat, too.
And if you think Iâm going wildly off the rails here I want to talk about Laiosâ wish of becoming a monster. And to be clear before getting into it, being mentally a monster is absolutely a big part of the appeal for Laios, itâs something thatâs consistently referred to, something especially pointed out in the werewolf monster tidbit with Lycion. Right panel is from that, but left panel is from the extra with Izutsumi where Lycion talks about suppressing souls in a beastkin body, the human or the beast soul.
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Finding comfort and freedom in being mindless, less sentient, less aware? While being unaware in her hometown might have saved Falin a lot of heartache although perhaps stunted her emotional growth, itâs always been Laiosâ curse.
Actively, through his choices, he seeks to grow closer to people, to form deeper bonds, to understand and be undertood, but⌠On a deep seated level, what he desires is to leave humanity and civilization behind. He has an irrational hatred for humans, born from the trauma of ostracization, being different, being beaten up and rejected consistently through his life. Running away from problems is easier. He wants to be free from being a social animal from a social species who has deemed him the black sheep, he thinks itâd be simpler to just leave it all behind, people and his own humanity. At its core, to Laios becoming a monster is a power fantasy, a coping daydream of "if only I could be strong enough to never be hurt again, the power to destroy anything I want, the power to go somewhere better, if only it was possible for me to never feel hurt again. If only I could be someone, something, that can never be hurt". "If thereâs someone you donât like, you can gobble âem up in one bite. If you could fly, youâd be able to leave this village right now." Itâs a childhood fantasy, from a deep sense of being misplaced and a desire to be able to stand fearless, thinly covering up resentment that Laios represses.
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But youâll notice, when the Winged Lion is enticing him in the last page, even now with his lifelong wish of becoming a monster on a silver plate, he still cares about his friends. He still has that sense of responsibility to his friends, doesnât want to leave knowing theyâll be in danger and alone. The offer that his friends may be left unharmed is already good, but Laios also visibly flinches when the Winged Lion offers to specifically care after Marcille and rid her of her biggest fear. Laiosâ care runs that deep. Not unlike with the succubus, he resists temptation until he gets reassured that everyone will be okay. But see, what he desires isnât to stand alongside Marcille until her last days, it isnât to stay and see how well his friends will live, itâs to go. Itâs to leave. Itâs to fly away, a monster both in body and mind. He wants to be free from caring here, wants to not have to worry about his friends, wants to just go do his own thing, but for that he needs to feel safe in the belief that said friends will be safe even without him being there to see it, because despite everything else he cares, he does. Itâs again that dichotomy about caring and wishing you didnât, or not caring and wishing you did.
In the end, itâs Falin who achieves that wish. Both by becoming a chimera during canon, and by going traveling post-canon. In the latter, being both free of human relationships as something chaining you while still being uplifted by them, by the knowledge that there are people out there you love and that love you. Itâs a theme that can also be connected with Marcille, because she gets anxious over people she loves getting out of her sight, worrying theyâll get themselves killed, that time is passing while theyâre away from her. But before she can get to the point where she can both have her freedom and being uplifted by her social bonds, regaining both her individuality and her connections, she has to get a taste of just one at a time. Before they can find balance in her life, she has to see what itâs like to have what sheâs never had on its own. Unapologetic freedom, and power.
No one can blame you for not caring enough or caring right if youâre a fricking dragon!!!! You make the rules when youâre a beast and you can just⌠Fly away. From anywhere, from anything. And if a dog bites you you can just crush it. Instead of being pushed around by the dogs because youâre at the bottom of the hierarchy, youâre now at the top, the one with the power to be heard and do what you want without consequences.
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I think sheâs on autopilot. I think sheâs on autopilot a lot of the time, even before being a chimera, and itâs partly why her will is so weak compared to regular dragons. (Again, read my shorter analysis.) Itâs familiar to slip back into the role of following someone around unquestioningly. And thatâs what is weaponized when sheâs a chimera, that instinct sheâs been nursing all her life to unconditionally support, defend and follow someone. Only now, that someone doesnât matter in itself, only the symbol of it. She doesnât mind, either way is fine. Her will is weak after all, because sheâs trained it to take as little place as it could.
Falin cares too much
She spends all her time caring for Laios and Marcille alternating that none of her care and emotional energy is left for others, including herself. So she had to get relieved of all of that for a bit, becoming the chimera so she could reset and recenter and remember that she, too, indeed, is there and an important part of her own life.
So youâre probably seeing the duality Iâm talking about here, Falin is very self-sacrificial but for specific people in ways that they often donât recognize or appreciate. She cares but selectively, both in people, putting all her eggs in the same baskets, and in the ways she cares after them. She doesnât care a lot, but when she does she cares a lot. Falin doesn't have a lot of earthly attachments, but when she does, they're her world.
In canon her arc, especially post-canon, is to grow beyond Marcille and Laios. Her caring for her close loved ones held her back from looking after her own self-fulfillment needs. And this is what I mean when I say she cares too much; she could gain from caring more about the world besides Laios and Marcille, both lands wise and people wise. She cares too little, but her arc centers her flaw around caring too much instead. Her pitfalls that Kui highlight over the course of the story, while of course her selflessness is appreciated for how she saved Laios and everyone, on a personal level is shown to be self-effacing and damaging. Sheâs undermined by Marcille, without the courage to voice her thoughts and wants, she would dedicate her whole life to Laios. And I mean, itâs text, in the response to Shuroâs proposal extra no less. And sheâs so laser focused on her most loved people that sheâs fine with being callous and risking othersâ lives, even.
Post-canon, she needs to leave to find herself, away from them.
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Herself. What if she wants to just be with herself for a while.
And this is me reaching but I feel like, not unlike Izutsumi who learns to feel this sense of never being alone, always having someone on your side what with having two souls, the dragon in her would make her consider herself more. She finds it easier to care after other people after all, and in the purgatory fields sequence she takes care to bring the bit of dragon left with her⌠Not unlike with Izutsumi, having two souls forces you to think about your identity and figure yourself out. Besides being this sort of duo now, where if she wants to care after herself she can channel it to that other side of her too⌠In meta dragons are symbols of greed, and I think the bit of dragon would push her to want more and listen more to her desires, primal and self-serving as they might be. The dragon soul which warped her human body with feathers and draconic features, her image of perfection marred, her weirdness externalized in a way thatâs not palatable. But she doesnât care, about if her appearance is palatable for most people, she hasnât for a while now, and thatâs great.
Notes & nuance
Iâm struggling with the structure of this post, making my points organized, concise and strong at once. Itâs difficult to make any statement without going "things are generally like this, but thereâs this time that this contradicting thing happened too" or "itâs ambiguous enough that you should just follow my interpretation for the time of this analysis" haha, so this is the pit where I put all the stuff that wouldnât fit well in other places but are interesting for Falinâs character. This section is pretty separate from the main thesis of the post, itâs just more Falin observations. The post has reached the 30 pics limit so I canât just pull it up whenever itâs relevant but I really encourage scrolling up to read the stuff I highlighted in her Adventurerâs Bible profile if you havenât already.
I think with the shy-looking loner type autistic kid archetype, and knowing she didnât seem to mind others ostracizing her, itâs easy to lose sight of how she was by no means an unemotional child. In all the bits we see of her as a kid sheâs bursting with energy and emotions. Canon confirms Laios leaving the village did affect her and make her lonely and she cried a lot, too. She may not be social in the traditional sense, but she was clingy with her brother, and she also never was all that shy about who she was, wearing her heart on her sleeve.And okay. Okay okay okay. Speaking of appearances. About what I said of her not caring about what people think of her, even seeming defiant with the caravan leader⌠Thereâs one istanxe of her caring actually, and itâs about how her face blushes easily. I remembered it as being because Laiosâ said it and as I rambled Laiosâ words are her world, but actually itâs ambiguous. Itâs only Marcille imagining up this scenario where Laios says Falin looks weird because of it, thereâs no evidence Laios said or thought that at any point. And on the other handâŚ
Her Adventurerâs Bible says: "5, Lovely Skin. She isn't particularly careful with it, but Falin's skin is fair and beautiful. Possibly as a result, her cheeks seem to flush easily. Marcille's always saying she's cute, and she secretly has a sizable complex about it." The phrasing makes me think the complex she has over her blushing might have developed because of Marcille more than Laios. "Marcille's always saying she's cute, and she secretly has a sizable complex about it." It could be related to how Marcille gets swept away and infantilizes her, calling her cute wanting her to wear cute feminine outfits etc. Again this feels like it relates to Falinâs struggle to be seen for who she is and what she wants to be seen as, her struggle to be recognized, having ideals and perspectives pushed onto her. Here Falin is insecure over her blushing implicitly because she doesnât like being called cute over it, but thatâs not how she wants people to see her. She doesnât want Marcille to always see her as her 10 years old adorable friend. Like if your friend said you had puppy energy, it can be flattering, but it can also make you insecure.
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Hereâs a link to what I mentioned about her being uncomfortable wearing feminine outfits. It does seem to be more about comfort than the aesthetic perse, to me. Interestingly the shirt & shorts donât seem like they show much more skin than her beach outfit, so maybe itâs more about the shirt and shorts being tight-fitting. Like the skirts and heels they feel stifling. Again a bit with themes of freedom and not wanting an aesthetic pushed onto her. So yes just to reiterate, I think this is more about self-affirmation and how her identity and self-image gets shown to others, rather than wishing to hide parts of her body like her blushing etc for people pleasing reasons. Makeup was a way for her to appear how she wants to and feel more confident. It was a way to take control over her own image. She didnât keep doing it, the narrator stating the process to be âtroublesomeâ. Ultimately she still prioritizes her comfort, and it was a lot of recurring efforts to go through.
And on the topic of appearances⌠A friend once asked me: "Does she really hide herself or not? I keep thinking about "falin is herself first and foremost" (in her Adventurerâs Bible profile) itâs just so. Hmmmmmmmm... I just keep seeing people say she hides her real self from people when I feel like the issue is more about her charitable traits straying too far into becoming flaws but people around her dont realize that..."
Imo the thing is, I donât think she hides her identity, but I do think she suppresses her individuality for othersâ sakes if that makes sense. In the way that only post-canon does she allows herself to go see what the world is like, but thatâs not personality wise itâs needs and wants wise. And I do feel like thatâs the closest interpretation of canon, she says it herself she doesnât know what she wants because everything sheâs done was always about Laios or Marcille, but she doesnât change her demeanor or personality for others. But she *will*, like, not ask for things she wants directly, like sharing lunches with Marcille at the academy, she suppresses her wants, doesnât ask things from people and doesnât hope for more, hope for better. I donât think we ever see her actively repress her personality, except like what, being more laidback than enthusiastic but I do feel like unlike Laios with her itâs less âappearing stoic to fit in moreâ and more âyeah iâll just chill until Iâm needed or something activates my enthusiasmâ. To which said friend quoted: "to feel like you belong you need to be useful. when you canât be useful the next best thing is being convenient."
And speaking of passivity⌠I want to speculate about Shuroâs proposal some more. Shuro and her got along well though we donât know how much, or how often they hung out, she even saved him from a nightmare. Why did she take so long answering Shuroâs proposal? Was it an effort to preserve or was she really just that conflicted? Procrastination probably yes, but what is the core motivation of itl Considering she ended up saying no to travel the world instead, I donât think it was as simple as âshe wanted to say yes for convenienceâ. Logically itâs what would have been best, but itâs not what she wanted for herself, but it was and still is hard for her to even know what she wants. Probably, since like she states it was a great offer and she doesnât think sheâll get proposed to again, itâs that self-effacing tendency that yes itâd be convenient and logical, and that makes her want to say yes even if her spirit isnât in it, because if itâs convenient then thatâs more important than her feelings on the matter. Man also⌠Obviously Marcille is very vocal about how she shouldnât get with Shuro, but imagine how Falinâs whole perspective on marriage must have felt when her only friend ever is a Romantic with a capital R who gushes about idealized romances and grand gestures and True Love and doing things with fully pure feelings all the time.
AND speaking of passivity!!! How much Falin is "there" as the chimera, just how much sheâs master of her actions, is left ambiguous and intentionally so imo, but sheâs for sure there & influencing the dragonâs action to some degree. Having a dragonâs foot on her in purgatory that keeps her from moving for sure visualizes how it must have been like, but thereâs Falin calling out to her brother Laios, thereâs the kind attentions towards Thistle that are so Falin-like, and most explicitly thereâs the Adventurerâs Bible stating "Even after becoming a chimera, she has a soul that's as kind as ever", which I honestly dislike, a fantranslation puts it as "Even as the chimera, her caring nature remains" and either way to me it feels like confirmation that itâs her giving those berries to Thistle. Now, wether or not she has the mental capacity of a chicken or something closer to human Falin, no clue, there has to at least be some kind of mind bond between monsters and the dungeon lord, compelling or forcing them to go along with orders, or calling her to him in distress like with the fight on the first floor. But yes, itâs interesting to wonder what it is that a Falin, with her kind soul but without her human mind, would willingly do. On her profile, sheâs described as Thistleâs guardian and servant. The power dynamic between the two are very interesting, I already went into how it might have felt like freedom to her while being fake so Iâll reign myself in and just mention it again. Sheâs still at the heel of someone, only now itâs someone who doesnât care about her back. Going from being cared for so strongly that itâs suffocating and they would defy death and the world for you, to being devoted to someone who has not one feeling about you besides your utility as a paw . She has all this care to give and to focus onto others and he has none to send back to her and I think thatâs part of it. In a way, being left with only her own feelings and a void, without expectations or feelings or ideals pushed onto her, it might have been soothing in itself, and eye opening. But yes the way I think of it, her care for Thistle isnât unlike the care she gives the ghosts.
Interestingly, the care she extends for the ghosts is sending their soul to a peaceful death, freeing them, of life and any earthly attachment. Take that as you will with the themes of freedom and burden of life and mind, immortality and becoming a warped version of who you were, and such and such.
But going back on the topic of connections and bonds for a bit, I think academy days Falin & Marcille is super interesting bc weâve never really see Falin form a connection besides with Marcille and even that is kept pretty ambiguous. When was the point that Falin started seeing Marcille as a friend and seeking her out? When was the "Iâll lay down my life for you" point? Iâm so fascinated by how she wanted to share lunches with Marcille but never truly asked, only made little "hey want this? I found it isnât it cool?" gestures of showing things to her⌠Itâs the only way she knows to ask, or maybe itâs the only way she feels comfortable to. In all the scenes of young Falin and Marcille Falin seems comfortable in her friendship with Marcille, but at the same time⌠I think we see Falin at her most insecure around Marcille, because she really does care about Marcille and what she thinks of her so much, and while Marcille is a bit of an unstoppable force tornado style (affectionate) Falin is something of a doormat. Iâd usually say showing her berries was her earnest way to connect and be like "Hey bestie look at this! :]" , but thereâs a real possibility that she was self-conscious and holding herself back.
Friendship and Marcille! Involving Laios into this too but, again with the autism thing of not showing you care in ways that others understand, Marcille being very overtly affectionate and clingy was so so soo important⌠Marcille keeping on hanging out with Falin and caring after her, and being undeterred/unbothered by Falin not always seeming like she cares all that much back in the conventional way, as in Falin acts nonchalant and a bit like she didnât mind wether she was there with her or not during her outings to the cave dungeon. Caring and being clingy and so affectionate despite that in such a classic Marcille way is soo needed, because so often people will get discouraged by say, their friend not keeping in contact regularly/well, seeming disaffected or as happy-go-lucky as ever even if you havenât seen each other in a while or when theyâre alone, and yes thereâs potential for a strong friendship there but someone like Falin wonât be committed enough to reciprocating attention the same way⌠I hope Iâm making sense but yes this angle in particular strongly correlates to autism. And the way Marcille always initiates physical affection, both Toudens being awkward about initiating touch because they donât know if thatâs allowed, if theyâre going about the social interaction the right way, if theyâre allowed to ask that out of someoneâŚ
Another fun observation to make is about the 4 years Falin and Marcille spent apart. Marcille despite being of a long-lived race treated these 4 years of separation with more gravity than Falin did. Falin brushed it off very dismissively to say the least. But then you remember that the amount of time Falin and Laios didnât see each other after he left the village was 8 years. Double the years, double the time. And that reminder makes Falinâs actions so starkingly understandable. Of course she wouldnât see 4 years of separation as a long time if 8 years of separation with her beloved brother is her point of comparison. Of course sheâd see it as worth it to leave Marcille for 4 years if it meant ending those 8 years instead, especially if she was worried about him (the reason why she followed him into his caravan job).
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A friend always says that while Falin is the center of Marcilleâs world, Laiosâ is at the center of Falinâs, and I tend to agree.
Itâs fun to think of how her career dreams had always been shaped by Laios, even when they were kids. Of course thereâs how traveling the world began as a dream they talked about and shared, but thereâs how he reassures her by listing cool jobs she could do like traveling exorcist, etc. And then of course, she gave up on her magic academy and career path to follow him and do odd jobs, etc etc.
I should go into the violence of Faligon more tbh, because I think thereâs an interesting parallel to how she has no problem wacking things with a mace, wether a ghost when she was a kid or a walking mushroom as an adult. Something that often surprises fans when they remember, I donât really want to get into the whole " Falin hates violence and hates seeing people in pain to an intense degree. âIf you die do it somewhere where I canât seeâ styleâ interpretation, it has some weight but on the whole I donât vibe with the theory she has a particular aversion to violence, she seems to be fine resorting to it as much as any other adventurer as long as it isnât needlessly against ghosts. And Falinâs sudden mace hits are fun to me too because itâs not her becoming a berserker when the need arises as much as her becoming active because something she cares about is threatened, and that brings her out of her passivity from 99% of the rest of the time. Thistle included. Falin always could be violent, she just dislikes senseless carnage. The Shuro party vs chimera fight is a bit ambiguous on it, because you can argue she only attached after being provoked, presumably offscreen as well while the ninjas went off to fight the harpies. Falin becomes the most active when she needs to protect someone, she has no qualms doing whateverâs needed for that, wether it be leaving the academy & Marcille without notice no matter the consequences or what her parents think, or teleporting the party, etc.
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Iâm working on a post specifically pointing out all the differences between Falin and Laios, but yes I think both of them selfishly desire freedom in different yet similar ways. Falinâs dark secret is "Ethics and risks are optional if it means I can protect those I love" like the teleportation, and Laiosâ is "Ethics and risks are optional if I can be free of all this bullshit" aka humanity aka his wish with the winged lion.
Conclusion
Flighted birds have hollow bones. With freedom and wings there comes risks and sacrifices.
Tldr: Falin doesnât care all that much, sheâs very go with the flow. For example if someone hates her she doesnât really care because thatâd require her caring about what they think of her in the first place, and she only cares about her loved ones. She smiles, but itâs more a state of being rather than out of active goodness: sheâs canonically very genuinely kind, but itâs more out of a general want for pleasantness than active care itself. Sheâs passive, and softspoken because thatâs just how she seems, but she has no problem hopping into bushes or getting heated if something calls to her enthusiasm or calls for action and a hit of the olâ mace. Her loved ones needing tending or protective is what makes her go from passive to active. That familiar autopilot mode of making someone the center of her world and following their every move is what made her so easy to be controlled as the chimera, even ferociously defending him with her life. Faligon is most interesting to me with the theme of freedom. Sheâs shackled to Thistle and out of her mind, but thereâs also a sense of empowerment and freedom from expectations and society. She spends all her time caring for Laios and Marcille alternating that none of her care and emotional energy is left for others, including herself. So she had to get relieved of all of that for a bit, becoming the chimera so she could reset and recenter and remember that she, too, indeed, is there and an important part of her own life. Thereâs a way of caring after others that can be selfish, not unlike Marcille being overly coddling and not listening to Falin. In Falinâs case, I think it was so selfless that it ended up looping back around to erasing her sense of self. In losing sight of herself, that devotion becoming neither quite selfish or selfless but a fact of life and a state of nature, muddled by its lack of direction.
Sheâs sooo used to never being able to ask things out of others, you get the crumbs of affection and approval that others offer to you unprompted and thatâs it donât hope for more donât ask for more. (Also reflected in how she follows her loved ones around without complain or personal opinions and how sheâs not willing to rock the boat and affirm herself in her relationships like with Marcille during canon)
Falin cares so much, so much and so laser focused on her few loved ones that it blinds her and she loses sight of everything else, she ends up neglecting herself and the rest of the world. As Kui puts it, Falin is herself first and foremost. She just had to remember the importance of that.
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I see her as an enneagram 9, which can be surprisingly accurate and fun to research through the lense of Falin. Excerpt below from this book, but like my god, good way to put it
Thatâs it, ty for reading. Even if itâs a bit of a mess, hopefully youâll have gained a thing or two from it. Falin is a character hard to pin down, but it is very gratifying when you find the way that the puzzle pieces fit together right for your own understanding of the story. Fantranslation of the shuro proposal comic by @/thatsmimi here.
Hereâs my spotify playlist for her if youâd like
Sometimes love is about letting go, a lesson a lot of the cast needed to learn. Self-loveâs important too, and just like with diets we need a healthy balance.
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#I find it hard to express myself right on the topic of Falin. Both because the issue is pretty vibe based and because we donât#get that many moments with her. So thereâs ambiguous scenes up to interpretation addressing a layered topic and like. Save me. Save me#As always falling down the rabbithole of starting an analysis about a specific facet and then needing to explain everything else around it#Iâm doomed. Iâm getting lost in the sauce.#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#falin touden#analysis#character analysis#meta#autistic reading#aroace reading as well. Sort of. Itâs mentioned#The aroace autistic guilt of not caring back in the way/with the intensity youâre expected to#As always this is just my interpretation blablabla#Spoilers#dungeon meshi manga spoilers#She loves like a dog aka unconditionally and happy with eating scraps of affection and attention off the floor#Laios touden#heâs here too bc they are an unit#If youâre not capitalizing on the uncanny vibe autistic effect for Falinâs character u are missing an opportunity imo#Fairyâs child is written all over her. Her cryptic-ness is the point so why am I surprised sheâs hard to fully pin down#Even with the graveyard scene it was Falin following Laios⌠Sob. Laios could feel responsible her powers were found out#Iâd like to rework this at some point if i get better at structuring. Iâm not satisfied by the level of clarity#Will 90% for sure edit stuff in if i find more to say.#Fumi rambles#Crazy style#I give a TLDR at the end if youâd prefer. It doesnât have the like evidence/explanations alongside but it makes the main points i think
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hordak is such a ridiculous man because my brother really came out here with the COOLEST fucking entrance and he was genuinely being set up as such a scary and threatening villain
like look at this he actually looks so fucking cool when we first see him. i honestly thought he was going to be our main villain for the entirety of the series.
but then we see him interact with entrapta and then the realization suddenly hits that not only is he the most awkward person ever he's also just turned into like WifeGuy⢠the second entrapta talks to him.
absolute fucking loser i'm just obsessed with how hard he tries to just act like a normal villain; like he has the scary armor, the dimly lit lair and throne, even his voice sounds scary like.
he even has his own weird little minion and whatever the fuck shadow weaver is. generally, his whole scary vibe and plans for world domination set him up as a proper villain, but then he meets entrapta and all of that just CRUMBLES and is tossed out the window.
10/10 i'm a fan of the progression.
#she ra#spop#she ra and the princesses of power#she ra netflix#hordak#entrapta#entrapdak#i'm sorry but he's actually such a loser#someone is nice to him one time and he's like wait a damn fucking minute#entrapta is something else honestly#i love her she's so funny#saw this absolute mess of a man and went hmm yes i want that one#same with hordak like#he is set up to be such a scary and threatening villain#but he sees entrapta of all people and completely falls head over heels#villain image ruined bye#man tried so hard to be a proper evil villain but like
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mmmmmm read a disciple shen yuan/shizun luo binghe fanfic about two days ago where the first chapter was the Immortal Conference arc, and SQQ was the one who had to be pushed into the abyss (he was still the villain) except Luo Binghe was refusing and was like, lowkey losing his mind about SQQ being so close to the edge. SQQ ended up having to be the one to fall in himself because of the system's punishment system. The rest of the fic is leading up to that moment. But like, MMM i've been obsessively thinking about that first chapter for DAYS ever since.
now i've been in svsss for a grand total of *checks watch* a week. but god obsessed with that. I want to write/read a fic where disciple SQQ goes a little nuts down there. Like keep all of the things that make SQQ, SQQ, but just. Throw in a little bit more trauma in there. A little bit of a mental break. Let him go a little nuts as a treat. Just a tad unhinged. I wanna see him go, just a little, "god fuck it, i've tried so hard to change this shitty story's outcome and it feels like everything i've done has been for nothing. I'm going to die in this world no matter what I do, I've been doomed from the start, so might as well die the way I want to." and he just, breaks a little! Under all the stress.
He still retains the traits that makes shen yuan, shen yuan, like his overwhelming kindness. But he's just! yk. A little less patient. Paranoid. Jumpy. Colder. A little more aloof and closed off. A little more Shen Jiu. He's no asshole child abuser, but he was a Number One Hater in his past life and he's leaning into that old habit a little more now.
(On a totally coincidental not-at-all related note, there's not enough SJ-and-SY-are-the-same-people fics out there that i've found. This is totally unrelated...)
The Endless Abyss turns the mind into an over-sharpened blade, and SQQ is both fascinated and perhaps a little excited to explore a place that doesn't have a lot of info on it in the mortal realm, but still terrified out of his mind. And he's no Luo Binghe, he doesn't have the sheer brute strength and power to just bulldoze his way through, so he has to be a lot more sneaky and cunning if he wants to survive.
The fic itself role-swapped LBH and SQQ so that SQQ was the half-demon (which lowkey fucks) and LBH the human, but I'm equally-if-not-more obsessed with the idea that LBH remains the half-heavenly demon and SQQ the human. If only because I keep thinking about SQQ befriending some demons (particularly and specifically a group of succubi) and they grow very attached to this Human Cultivator so through magic plot stuff they create some kind of seal/illusion/talisman that makes SQQ appear as a demon because a human cultivator in the endless abyss may as well be the equivalent of putting a giant neon target on your back.
And iirc Shen Jiu was taught demonic cultivation by that one guy(?? i've only been here a week so im not caught up in ALL of the lore yet) so that could totally happen here.
(On the other end of the realms, poor Shizun Luo Binghe is just. losing his fucking mind over losing his most precious and beloved disciple. About .5 seconds from burning down the peaks himself. somebody sedate him.)
The Endless Abyss sucks and SQQ is having a really terrible time and can feel himself going lowkey mad, but also holy shit look at all this WORLD-BUILDING. look at all this flora and fauna, and oh if he had the equipment for it he'd be writing all of this down. ALL OF IT. He was kinda-sorta-already planning on never leaving the Abyss as some sort of fucked up self-exile and self-preservation thing, but now he might? actually just?? never leave if he can help it, like he lowkey likes it down here.
anyways the next time anyone ever sees SQQ again he's got hair so long its almost touching the ground and he's either in rags and half-feral or he's been completely dolled up by his adoptive succubi sisters and still about three seconds from biting anyone who tries to touch him. (he's also lowkey trying to book it back down to the abyss even if he has desperately missed all of his friends and shizun)
#mxtx svsss#svsss au#scum villian self saving system#shen qingqiu#shen yuan#luo binghe#disciple shen yuan#scum villain#svsss#*points at SQQ/SY* i want him to go nuts. as a treat. let him crumble just a little over the stress of his fate and the stress of survival#and the stress of having a lack of autonomy over a handful of his decisions. starry craves angst and she craves a very specific SQQ angst#he was a number 1 hater back in the day and lbr being a hater takes energyyyy. ive heard that this man was the BIGGEST hater i wanna#see him rip a man to shreds with nothing but his tongue and a voice that could cut marble clean in half. skin a man alive sqq you deserve i#*mortal kombat voice* FINISH HIM#i love without-a-cure but unfortunately i dont think SQQ would be able to have WAC and also survive in the abyss.#the succubi nest that adopted him tried seducing him at first. it didn't work. but he did somehow charm them with his cringefail ways#so now they have a brand new mortal big/little brother to dote on. SQQ is frankly delighted to learn all about succubi culture that doesnt#revolve around sex. he makes quite a few friends/allies in the abyss because of his pure fascination and unbiased desire to learn about#demonic culture and all the different niches and nuances of it across species. he's still going insane tho. like that's not stopping.#there's a single LBH pov chapter in the fic and its frankly so unhinged it was fantastic. he's so possessive. he straight up goes:#'oh SQQ isnt gonna be the next peak lord. he's ascending to heaven with me when i do :)' when Sha Hualing (also peak lord) told him that he#couldn't keep his disciple in the bamboo house all the time. what was SQQ gonna do when LBH ascends and he becomes the new peak lord?#gosh that first chapter is rotating around in my mind so bad. LBH was SO unwell. like losing his actual shit over SQQ near the edge.#i so want to write a oneshot abt this where SQQ is also in hysterics (albeit over slightly diff reasons) and tells LBH on his knees:#'this disciple deeply apologizes to his shizun. for he will not be ascending to the heavens with him.' right before he falls into the abyss#this au being disciple SY is for shits and giggles but i can also see it happening for regular SQQ bc 'fuck it im a dead man either way'#frothing at the mouth at this idea also being a SY-is-SJ au too. for the extra angst of SQQ trying to bear the weight of multiple lives on#his shoulders and trying to figure out what is real and what isn't and if he's meant to suffer in all of his lives no matter what he does.#not once in his life has he ever been free to do what he likes has he? self-hatred to the max. he's going mad. poor boy :]
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Hmmmm... This one and this one I guess -digs through old AU/Prompts ideas and starts tossing them into a melting pot to make something new-
Royal errors, maybe Ghost King (Or just very powerful and respected by the Infinite Realms) Danny, AND deaged Dan and Ellie. With half-sibling Damian.
Talia is a woman with many, many secrets, this is a cold hard fact.
She has so many secrets its no wonder not a single living soul knows them all...
So when seventeen, almost eighteen, Damian really shouldn't had been surprised (he was though) when out of the blue he gets a call from an unknown number that somehow bypasses his firewalls against unknown numbers about his apparent five year old half-sister and brother Helen 'Ellie' Fenton and Dante 'Dan' Fenton.
That their father, Daniel Fenton was taken (by a shady should had been disbanded government agency) and they couldn't get a hold of their mother Talia at all (she was in a middle of stopping a coup happening, a rival assassin group, AND some idiots trying to revive Ra's at the same time, thus radio silent). About how Ellie and Dan were in danger of being taken as well but they needed to put in them a safe place so they could go rescue Danny before word gets out to... well lets just say some very POWERFUL beings weren't going to be happy and they are working on very limited time to get him back.
Jasmine Fenton tells him she knows he had no clue about his mother being with her brother and having kids with him, its something she and Talia often got into small arguments about but try not to bring it up to often around Danny, Dan, or Ellie, and that his relationship with her is often... rocky but she begs him to please watch over them while she, and her brother's best friends go a rescue mission for him.
That they were two very scared five year olds that had to watch their father be taken away after he barely managed to get them to safety and that Damian was the only one she could think of being able to watch over and least protect them at this serious moment.
Damian, and the rest of the family, are stunned silent when Jasmine finishes explaining, her voice on the verge of breaking and no doubt she was trying so hard not to sob.
#danny phantom#danny fenton#dp x dc#blue rambles#crossover#danny phantom dc#writing ideas#random idea#dpxdc#de aged ellie#de aged dan#royal errors ship#half sibling Damian#How Danny and Talia got together is a whole story in of itself#basically she was investigating Amity Park and 'Ectoplasm' reports#meet Danny as he was trying to save a destabilizing Ellie and Dan#they struck a deal tbh. Talia's liminal levels were high enough to support their halfa cores and Danny gives her info on Ectoplasm#at first it was all business but eventually they both fall for each other#Danny loves Talia for everything she is and Talia adores that he doesn't ask her to change.#Talia loves how Danny how unassuming Danny looks but underneath is a powerhouse.#Danny was the one who supported her choice of taking over the League away from Ra's#Basically Talia is the busy powerful business/assassin lady and Danny is a more stay at home house husband#Damian and Talia's relationship is very... rocky to say the least#Not as bad as it used to be when she was following Ra's orders but not how it used to be when they were younger#Talia was unsure how to tell him about his half-siblings#Damian is gonna find it weird. Not bad but weird. He had wanted little siblings but at the same time he is hurt he wasnt told way before#Dan and Ellie like Damian though and latch onto him like leeches cause they can sense his liminal aura aka he feels like home#Meanwhile the Batfam are trying to help and are uncovering everything about Amity Park thats been hidden for years#Jazz knows she's going to be in trouble for calling Damian but she needs her niece and nephew safe first#and who better to keep them safe than an assassin raised half brother whose also Robin
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Kathryn Hahn as Agatha Harkness in Agatha All Along | 01Ă02: Circle Sewn with Fate / Unlock Thy Hidden Gate
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#the bit is over when i say its over and even when its so joever for these two its not over for me!!! (once again i am on heavy copium)#anyway. thoughts behind the spoiler tags#gempearl#shiny duo#wild life smp#life series spoilers#wild life spoilers#i feel like. i actually was expecting that#no but its so funny the one time the negative consequences of something does actually get acknowledged its the SL finale âbetrayalâ/j#like cmon fuck me i guess/j (BIG EMPHASIS. ON THE SLASH J. OKAY.)#but honestly though i did expect Gem to hold a grudge over the 2v1 in SL. and. its good that there are consequences???#it IS a âbetrayalâ in Gemâs eyes. they were friends. they were murder besties for the last two sessions and then Pearl chose Scar over her#and its awesome man. [through gritted teeth] this is awesome man this will be good for character development ok ok ok. ok?#its also got something to do with Pearl having the red creep in. i think#because during SL Gem was like. nearly idolising the Scarlet Pearl persona while vaguely aware that her own reputation has a similar effect#and yknow. the horrors. the fact that their image is so heavily built on what others deem them to be and they can only play into it#but by the end of SL Gem gets âbetrayedâ by this persona that she looked up to#and also her own âGeminiSlayâ intimidating image is also starting to fall apart. partly of her own will#and now shes watching Pearl slowly turn red again. and this time she knows its not good for her or Pearl#so shes distancing herself from it. shes âtrying to fix her reputationâ. she sees Pearl falling into it again and just. no. i dont love you#you betrayed me last season#but on Pearlâs end of things sheâs already deep into the idea that as long as you say you âforgiveâ someone then everything thats happened#in the past doesnât matter and they can all be friends. and nooo absolutely no grudges will be held. no emotional repression here#so. because thats happened to her in her own team she thinks the same can happen with her and Gem#and thats so. im going to blow myself up now
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More reluctant king sabo au! I realized recently that this au is an excellent excuse for drawing sabo in pretty outfits that he would be absolutely miserable in :)
#one piece au#sabo#king sabo au#I have a very specific idea of sarie in my head.#in which she is largely a product of her upbringing#entitled but due to being given everything she wanted when she was raised#sheltered and poorly socialized because she was always above those who lived outside the castle#Sarie has the potential to be a good foil to sabo. I think their dynamic would be so interesting#because while I donât think sabo is interested in love at all#I also donât think sarie understands what love is outside of the fairytales she is allowed to read#and she must have such a twisted idea of love from growing up in the royal family where Iâm sure there must have been fights over heirs#not to mention she must have so many people vying for her attention if whoever marries her is apparently third to the throne#it definitely must have been impressed upon her since she was young that she doesnât marry for herself#or maybe she realizes this and is waiting for a fairytale knight in shining armor to take her away. idk#I do think that to her sabo is an odd superposition of a prince and a knight#I donât think she ever really falls in love with him. sheâs just so alienated from the concept of love and#someone who actually cares about her as a person that sabo being the first one floors her and convinces her sheâs in love
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Okay but can we have Mary meet Ed
PLEASE can we have Mary meet Ed?
#Our Flag Means Death#OFMD#OFMD 2#Our Flag Means Death 2#SUPER EXTRA BIG BONUS POINTS IF IT'S RANDOM AND SANS-STEDE#idk why they meet butnthey end up talking about Life#Ed loves her bc she found the love of her life after her husband died#and when it turns out he faked his death she decided he was gonna die anyway and Ed LOVES THAT for her#Mary hates him at first bc big annoying pirate man and she has had eNOUGH of pirate nonsense#thankyouverymuch#but then ends up loving him bc he literally chose life and love and happiness over a past he no longer identifies with#and she starts to view him as a kindred spirit#THEN Stede can show up and it all starts to fall into place in the most hilarious way#initiate spiderman points all around#please you know it would be hilarious#BlackBonnet#GentleBeard#spoilers#only very vaguely by name
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rei wakana and some girl best friends
#i love rei wakana so much im going to fall over#bandori#rei wakana#masuki satou#rokka asahi#masurei#reirokka#rei is filled w so much love she loves talking about her friends and ras as a whole it makes my heart explode#background character in a new years event and all she did was talk about how excited she was to celebrate new years w her friends??!?!?!??!#get it together girl. i love oyu#i rambled on this post so bad i deleted all the tags and left it in my drafs so. im stopping here#i love thrse three. bye bye#art tag
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au in which Penny and Mav were something more serious than a simple fling, or at least that's what Penny thought, until the met again and Mav is looking at Iceman Kazansky in the same way she used to look at him.
And the other man is looking back like nothing else is more important than having Pete's attention.
#au in which pen is eighteen when they met the first time and falls hard for him#but mav doesn't and she gets to see him fall in love with another person and it breaks her heart all over again#pov outsider#pov outsider icemav#icemav#tom iceman kazansky#pete maverick mitchell#past pennymav#based on don't forget by imagine dragons
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Say something true!
#critical role#ygifs#imogearne#imogen x fearne#when youâre taking a picture of the most beautiful thing youâve ever seen and the camera falls back and fucking decks you in the face#fearne going itâs ok you donât need to confess I know~~ while imogen interrupts to say ââyouâre a loserââ they drive me NUTSkljsgdlkjs#also my brain is a little beehive cos these two Started with Fearne being the enabler to darker things while imogen was cautious#to fearne Seeing imogen about to be lost to ruidus and hardveering into panic that the power would never be worth losing her#to imogen hearing fearne hesitate and deny the shard and then telling fearne she should do it anyway#the way these two handle the other's Sways in darkness in such a Knowing way - ââAre you sure it wasnât intentional?ââ#thereâs like this ping and before it was encouraging and now fearne is scared and imogen is enabling the risk#and itâs like either imogen is silently ensuring laudnaâs safety by fearne taking the shard despite any risk#or imogen honestly believes that fearne is stronger even than the power she would embrace. There is no risk. Fearne will conquer this.#so itâs like is it ulterior motives or is it faith or is it hypocrisy or is it all three at once it's so good#imogen spending her entire life running from her power so isnât it so much easier to tell fearne she can just do it while imogen couldnât#or is it just her genuinely encouraging fearne from Knowing the aftermath of pursuing the power#but it's like imogen ...... why would fearne choose you over the possibility for power when she's never done that before#and is this insistence/encouragement going to actually reassure fearne or is it going to be another crack#and when they do the ritual fearne asks imogen to be the one to take her out and imogen tries to comfort her by agreeing#and fearne looks on sadly and nods#remembering when she was asked to be the one to take imogen out and all fearne knew was that she couldnât#anyway imogen's face when fearne said you're in love with me imogen said NOT NOWDSHKJF#itfcep
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Thinking about. Thinking about how mari canonically has trouble sleeping / insomnia and is has to distract herself with other activities like reading to even fall asleep. And and then. Then thinking about. The fact mari can nap so quickly when sheâs with hero because she loves him and is so comfortable with him that she can do that
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#omori#omori mari#omori hero#heromari#sobbed while drawing this because heromari get to be tucked in all nice and cosy in bedâŚ#oughâŚ#Basil and sunny know about mariâs sleeping issues because sunny directly mentions them in game and basil is over often enough to know#so whenever this happens they make sure to get them comfy because mari rarely rests normally#like when they draped the blanket over them at basilâs birthday when they napped on the couch⌠crying#also makes the âsheâs just sleepingâ thing in the truth sequence even more gut wrenching#theyâre trying so hard to delude themselves into thinking that she is just asleep#but they know deep down that mari would never and could never just fall asleep like that#especially when sheâs stressed#explodes. dies#anyway I love heromari and I love drawing them happy
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"When he started thinking about rings he put himself on a plane home"
DAVID WYMACK I WOULD DIE FOR YOU
#like#i can't stop thinking about David bruised from a terrible life#finally falling in love#and he couldn't have it#and then 20 years later she had his son all along#aaaaaa#he's been hurt over and over again and he still is so#careful worried hopeful#i love him#aftg#all for the game#david wymack#aftg spoilers#rainbow crate bonus chapters
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Mirabel Madrigal & Creativity:
So something Iâve realized after watching the movie a couple of times now is how mirabels story can easily correlate with the experience of someone creative when youâre only considered of use if youâre academically smart.
Not only do they refer to the magic as âgiftsâ and âgiftedâ very common terms associated with people who are considered academically smart but also the fact mirabel is shown as an artist. Our first introduction to her you see her room is plastered in artwork as a 5 year old and even after the prologue you still see sheâs kept her artistic side. the thing is mirabel is incredibly talented she draws, she sews, she embroiders, paints, plays the accordion too! These are all incredible talents to possess and yet do we ever see her getting praised for them in the movie? not really. because mirabel doesnât have a âgiftâ a literal magic gift yes but also could be interpreted for a creative as academic smarts. Creative thinking is something mirabel possesses and its quite literally the answer in the end but because sheâs not smart in the expected way i.e academics she feels sheâs not worth as much as others in her family.
I like to think making her an artist was an intentional choice as I know a lot of fellow artists have had people tell us itâs not a âusefulâ skill to have in the real world. Itâs not worth taking the time doing when you could be pursuing medicine or law or something that uses your brain. Even in the ending of the movie mirabel tells them theyâre âmore than just your giftâ which I feel can relate a lot to people who heavily rely on their academic achievements they can forget itâs ok to not do 100% every time and these ridiculous standards are just wearing you down.
So in conclusion I believe mirabels story resonates a lot with the experience of being a creative person but your skills not being seen as valuable. I just love that they made mirabel an artist to show how talented she actually is! she shows that creatives are valued and appreciated and needed and deserve to be encouraged not shot down! so thank you mirabel valentina rojas madrigal for being my favorite artist <3
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#encanto#encanto disney#disneys encanto#mirabel madrigal#disneyâs encanto#mirabel encanto#encanto analysis#artist mirabel my beloved <33#Iâve been thinking about this for agesss#creativity and artistic talent deserve recognition too!#I will forever love how they subverted tropes with mirabels character#fav artsy girl <3333#and sheâs good too like sheâs proud of her talent !#if she was insecure about her art I donât think she would wear it all over herself all the time#itâs just others donât appreciate the fact sheâs not gifted#god encanto is so incredible to be able to interpreted in so many ways#also mirabels more creative way or thinking falls in line with a lot of neurodivergent traits too#Iâve seen a few posts on adhd mira hc and i adore those#shoutout to you guys#anyways this was fun to ramble about#also this is not taking away from the main message of her story guys#just wanted to clarify the main message is incredibly important this is just an interpretation from that#ok byeeeee
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